I'm really board at the moment and I feel like making one of these journal things for one of my characters from my story (EDIT: which I will be putting on wattpad). So, none of this will make sense to....whoever's reading this, I'll most likely make a thing later to explain all of this. Soooooooo, yeeeeaaaah.
The only reason I'm writing this is because He wants to keep check of my "mental heath". He even taught me how to write just so I could do this. I know my paw-writing isn't that good yet, but I'm practicing. And Shadow knows how to write, too. He's helping me practice. Although, I don't even know where they get this paper from. They have lots of paper here, to keep track of the others I guess. Anyway, lets see here......symptoms of the experimentation, well, my fur has gotten darker. He said it's part of the BB, but I think He's doing some other things to me along with the BB. Other symptoms? Umm....well, She has been here for a long time now. I can hear Her taunts when ever I try to sleep. I also am sadder then usual, I guess its just me missing Peter and Mother. Peter is here, too. But he's on the other side of the building, or so I'm told. I really miss him. Shadow says that I can go see him once the first part of the experiment is done. I have to wait, because He said that if Brother (Peter) and I meet, the experimentations would get all messed up. Brother's being experimented on with something else, I don't know what it is, but I do know that it's changed him a lot. Lucius has told me how he's changed. He said the experimentation gave him the ability to control electricity, somehow. He said it mostly happens when he's about to turn, though. And I'm glad Shadow is here. I heard Shadow is taking care of me so He wont kill me. I don't know why Shadow is only doing this for me. Is it because I'm a she-wolf? Or because I'm younger then him? I don't know. But, I guess, I kinda depend on him now. He takes care of me and he talks to me whenever I'm sad. Although, I've noticed that he never looks me in the eye. I don't know why, but He says that Shadow is a red-blood with a very rare power. And it's strange, Father told me that all the red-bloods were killed. But, Shadow's a red-blood.......how? And what power does he have? Is it a power that He gave him? Is Shadow being experimented on, too? I wish all my questions could be answered already. I don't want to guess or think about it too much. I'm just a little worried about him, I guess. He's so......selfless. And he's the only one who's cared about me so much, even when She hurts him. Sometimes I blackout and when I wake up he's bright, red blood would be all over the wall. Or I'll wake up and he'll be at my side, covered in bandages and scars. I hate Her so much for hurting him. He doesn't deserve to be hurt. He never did anything wrong. If anything, She needs to be hurt for everything She's done. Murder, torcher, and even cannibalism. She needs to be hurt for all of it! But.....She can't be hurt. Because of the BB experimentation, She can't get hurt or anything. She's practically immortal. Well, anyway, I should probably end this. Shadow is here now.